I've been waiting for this moment

Valentine's Day

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 01:25:55 GMT

Happy Valentine's Day.

Hope everyone's day was better than mine.

Life's getting better

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 23:42:12 GMT

Life is getting better.

My birthday was absolutely amazing. I couldn't have asked for a better day.

The cruise was really fun. This winter break is one I'll never forget.

Ben & I are, once again, on speaking terms. We've been talking a lot...and honestly, I like that. I missed talking to him. We talk about everything & nothing. It's great.

Of course I've been stressed out with all of this AP History work. But other than that, things are great.

Less than a week & we're back to school. =[

Not much

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 10:12:05 GMT

It's been awhile since I've posted. A lot has happened...most of which I'm not willing to talk about.

99x-mas ball was on Friday. It was a totally kick ass concert. One of the best I've ever been to. Nonpoint, Flyleaf, Three Days Grace, Stone Sour, & Disturbed are amazing. I absolutely love Stone Sour & Disturbed now. I've always been a fan of Flyleaf & Three Days Grace. Nonpoint is growing on me. But yeah, it was an amazing show. Totally worth it.

12 days until my 17th birthday!!!!!

bordom baby, bordom

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 04:23:46 GMT

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
i fell off the bunk on a cruise ship.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
paint, posters, bulletin board, i love math sign =]

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
red razr. =D

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
everything. depends on my mood.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
3:30 PM.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
my paycheck.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
my camera & my guitars.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
victoria's secret purfume.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
sometimes.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?
yeahh.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
A&F cologne & purfume...and endless love from victoria's secret.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE ?
doesn't matter.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
i don't know. i don't know if that will ever happen to me.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
energy drinks, baby. red bull...red bull...& monster!

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS?
extra cheese!! hehe.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
cake.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
mr. v...but i deserved it.

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
not fluently...but i know french & ASL.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE :
flowers.

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
yeah.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
yes.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
pretty much anything.

25. WHAT`s YOUR DREAM CAR?
ford focus.

27. WHAT IS ONE OF YOUR DREAMS?
to be successful in life.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
13.

31. S OR S?
your mom.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
hmmm...alyssa. But texting wise...mervee, alicia, and dora.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
people who interrupt me.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
yeah.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
ben. i'm serious.

36. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE?
new jersey or new york. but i think i could settle with florida.

37. FIRST JOB?
mcdonalds. eww.

38. Ever made a prank call?
yeah.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
pre-calculus homework.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
no comment.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
because i needed a break from homework.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
eyes.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
whatever.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
go ice skating or go to hooters.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
one. maybe two.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
nope.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
no.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
middle. tfs.

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
today. pre-calculus is stressful!

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
mostly.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
none.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
i don't know.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
yeah. who hasn't?

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
not at all.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
nope nope nope.

61. WHAT ARE THE FIRST THREE NUMBERS IN YOUR CELL NUMBER?
823. [the same as danielle's!!]

62. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK AS A CHILD?
any dr. suess book.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
nah, never!

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
nope.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
nope.

70. WHAT`S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
chocolate peanut butter.

73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
all of them...but i'm getting them out.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
nah.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
99x.

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
chocolate. i've been craving it.

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
hmmm...there's a lot. one is "the sunscreen song" =]

81. FAVORITE THING TO DISLIKE?
people.

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
coca cola, baby.

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN?
sagittarius.

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
field hockey & hockey & football.

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
yeah.

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
december.

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
nope.

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
house.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
december 16th.

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
nah.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
hugs.

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
relationships.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
idk.

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
idk.

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
"A Million Little Pieces"

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
maybe.

err

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 00:50:29 GMT

I hate work. Working at McDonalds is not for me. I agree with Mervee. I should work at a bookstore. It fits my personality more. Everytime I see a McDonalds commercial I want to shoot myself. =[

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 00:49:54 GMT

I love my life.

I talked to Ben again today. It was like our first "real" conversation in like 5 months. It meant a lot to me. I love that kid.

I have a 100% in Pre-Calculus. I got a 100% on my test. Yayy.

I got a job at McDonalds.

So yeah. My life rocks.

Fucking School

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 03:52:13 GMT

I fucking hate school right now. Everything sucks. In CAD, I can't seem to do anything right. Mervee says I'm doing a good job, but I'm struggling like crazy. It takes me twice as long to do everything, because I'm so damn stupid. And ASL is one big joke. For 2 weeks we haven't done shit, except watch stupid movies...and now our "teacher" wants us to watch these videos about sign language....AND THEY'RE ALL WRONG! I think it's signed english...not ASL. And there's no structure to the damn movies...we learned "baby" and "piano" at the same time. And apparently the alphabet is a, b, c, d, e, o, k. Yeah. I got a fucking 89% in AP History...an 89!!! One fucking point away from an A...and it's all because my essays suck. I get a B on every essay...and now I know why. Our essays are compared to Abid's. And honestly, I'll never be as good as him...and it just sucks that this is happening. I honestly don't know why I try so damn hard. Pre-Calculus...ehh, it's okay. I'm getting better, but I still feel like a failure. French is easy, whatever. I got a 265/230 on the test...highest grade, biiitch!! Haha. Niice. Chemistry...err, fuck Chemistry! I'm a complete failure in that class. AP English...oh, I just rock in that class!!!!! No problems for me there. ;]

Life sucks. I feel like giving up. But I have so much to live for, even though I don't see it right now.

+ christina.

ps. I think I may be in a relationship soon!! <33

End of 1st Quarter

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 16:49:17 GMT

The first quarter is finally over. It's been pretty crazy, actually. Everyone told me my Junior year would be my hardest year, but I didn't think it would be this hard. I expected all the homework/school work...but I didn't expect everything else. But I guess I couldn't have expected that. My favorite teacher left before school even started & I lost my best friend/boyfriend at the end of last year. That just put a huge hinder on this year. And then, Ms. Munoz leaves. Also, I get more homework than I can handle...I'm up until 1-2 in the morning (and on Thursday night, until 3 AM Friday morning) doing homework. It's crazy. I don't have time to do anything except for homework. I wanted to play soccer this year, but nope, I can't. I'm the president of Math League, which also takes up a lot of time. I'm finally getting better at math, but it's such a damn struggle. I'm after school every day getting help in Pre-Calculus & then doing my homework for that class. I get home between 4:30-5 PM...depending on the day. And then, I like this person, they like me...they want to go out with me...but I'm scared because this person has cheated on all of their girlfriends. And I don't think I could take that if it happened to me...again. I'm still not over Ben, but I don't know what to do about it. He talks about me a lot (from what I've heard) but I don't think he wants to be my friend. I don't want to go out with him again (okay, maybe I do), but I really want to be his friend.

Well, at least the 1st quarter is over. Maybe things will get better...maybe not. But I can always hope.

+ christina

I don't get it

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 03:27:55 GMT

I'm trying to remain strong...because people depend on my strength. But it's starting to get so damn hard. I feel like breaking down. Well, I already did on Monday. I was trying to keep everyone else happy...but I couldn't even make myself happy. And now, I'm trying to remain strong for everyone else...but I'm slowly breaking down. This is all a mental thing...I know, I know. And I need to keep telling myself to "stay strong" and to "hang in there." But I don't know if I can anymore. I'm always there for everyone else...and now, I just wish someone could be there for me. Everything is starting to take it's toll on me...school, not being able to get a job, family, home life...just everything. It seems as if I can't do anything right anymore. I'm not suicidal or anything...I'm just on the verge of a huge mental breakdown. And I think the one thing that's going to push me over the edge is wednesday...when Ms. Munoz leaves. I think during/after 2nd period I'm going to break. It's inevitable...so I guess there's no reason for me to try and stop it. I might as well accept it and hopefully I can move forward after it all.

Goodnight. ♥

I can't believe it

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 02:08:22 GMT

I can't believe she's leaving. I don't want to believe it. It's such a shock. I can't stop crying. I'm so flippin depressed to the point I swear I'm suicidal. I can't look at anything in a positive way. I feel like giving up....

Pre-Calculus

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 17:28:49 GMT

I have an A in Pre-Calculus!!!!!!!!!!!! I got an A on the Chapter 1 test! I have an A in Pre-Calculus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You have no clue how excited I am...

[EDIT]: We finally won a football game!!! 41-21...Gateway's first win this season, and Gateway's highest scoring game ever!!!! Go Griffins!

Football / Homecoming

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 03:10:30 GMT

Homecoming football game was tonight. We couldn't play at Shady Oaks...the field was destroyed. We played at South. The fields are sooo nice! But we lost, 46-0. Yeah, pretty bad. I hung out with Melissa, Sarah, Amy, Rufus (for a little), Alicia, and Mr. V during the game. It was fun.

Homecoming is tomorrow. I'm excited.

I'm going to bed now...goodnight.

Dance

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 02:28:08 GMT

I was asked to the dance, but I said no. If it wasn't for yesterday, I would have said yes. But he crossed the line. And I've made it very clear I DON'T WANT A BOYFRIEND! And it bothers me that he was basically flirting with me after school on Wednesday.

He's mad, I know that. But I don't care. I stand by my decision. I've learned to just say no.

Football

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 14:26:56 GMT

The football game was pretty crazy last night. We lost...of course. Ugh. We could have won. We should have won, but yeah. Long story about that. The fans, coaches, and even players of Moore Haven were such jerks! My gosh. I thought one of the Moore Haven fans was gonna beat me up...!!! I was sooo scared! Now I know why we weren't supposed to walk alone. But I didn't mean to! Katherine ditched me. Our whole side of the field was muddy...and me being me, I slipped. It was pretty funny. And I kept doing it too...on accident of course! I hurt my ankle, though. =[ Ohh well. I'll be fine. But yeah...I was covered in mud last night...! It was great. I love getting dirty! Not like that you damn pervs. Gosh.

Yesterday at school was crazy...with the robbery and stuff in Lehigh. Anyone going into Lehigh couldn't leave school...and they were being super strict on who was allowed to leave the school. If you were going out to your car after school, you had to be back inside in 10 minutes. It was chaotic. And it was a little scary. But on the way to the football game, we had to go through Lehigh...so we saw all the cops and helicopters and stuff. And then we saw a car accident happen. It was really sad...because when the people were getting out of the car, there was this little girl crying. She was sooo scared. Yeah, it was sad. =[

Hmmm...my grades are better now. 5 A's, 2 B's. Of course I have the B's in Mr. V's classes...CAD & Pre-Calc. But that's okay. I'll get those grades up. I got an 87% on my first AP History test! Oh my gosh...I'm sooo happy about that!!!!!!!!!!!! I thought I failed it. But an 87?!?!?! Ahhh. Soooo happy. And once again, I have a 99% in AP English (it went down to a 98 a few days ago). Yayyyy! Go me. I'm soooo happy with my grades right now.

Okay, I'm tired. I think I'll sleep more. Yeahh, sleep is good.

Negativity

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 00:57:10 GMT

So, my grades pretty much suck. I have 4 A's (French, ASL II, AP History, and AP English) and 3 B's (CAD, Pre-Calculus, & Chemistry). I feel sooo much pressure to get all A's. But it's just not possible. I have a fuckin 86 in Pre-Calc. I mean, COME ON! That class is sooo fucking hard. And I'm trying. But nobody gets it. They think I'm just a slacker. And CAD...well, I'm just retarded in that class. Chemistry - I failed a test. Simple as that. But, for my A's, I have really high A's! 99% in AP English & ASL and 100% in AP US History & French. Like seriously. What more do people want out of me? I'm not perfect. I can't get perfect grades. But I'm trying harder than I ever have.

And this whole Griffinette situation - I don't know what I want to do. I need some time to THINK. I can't stand everyone bothering me & trying to pursuade me into staying. I'll do what I need to do. Hmmm. I'll have my decision by Friday.

Sometimes I wonder why I try so hard at anything. Nothing's really worth it anymore. Sometimes I feel like I've given up on life...

Why?

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 03:11:53 GMT

I just realized...I still love him. I don't know why. I haven't talked to him in like 3 months. I thought I was over him. And I was. But I've realized that he has made me into the strong, independent girl I am today. Without him, I'd be nothing. And the truth is, he saved my life.

I miss him. I miss knowing someone cares about me. I miss who I was when I was with him. I just miss being happy.

I don't care what my friends say anymore. Call me stupid for still loving him. I don't care. I love him and I always will...

Dairy Queen

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 03:54:25 GMT

Sooo...today I went to visit Stephanie (Rufus) at work. She works at the new Dairy Queen on Daniels. So do Ben & Kellen. So, I went there. And I wanted to apply for a job...but I wasn't sure. But then Stephanie was like "come on, you have to!" So I did. And I filled out the application, and then the manager said that next week they're starting interviews & that I'd be called next week to set up at time for it. I'm really excited. I hope I get the job. Stephanie is gonna put in a recommendation for me. Ahhh...I'm so nervous but soooo excited! If I get this job then I'll get to work with Stephanie & Kellen. It seems like a really fun place to work. *keeps fingers crossed.*

No school

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 21:33:13 GMT

No school tomorrow! Okay...I'm kinda pissed. But uhm...yeahh, no school.

Yahh

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 15:08:48 GMT

School sucks. I'd rather be homeschooled. Gateway sucks ass this year. No joke.

But I have one reason to stay. =]
Cassie & Stephanie know what that is... =D

i need tissues

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 00:19:32 GMT

Mr. V is going to turn me into a math monster by the end of the year! I swear...!!! I spend sooo much time in his classroom that it's insane. I think I've mastered completing the square. Yayy! Go Christina!

Mr. V

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 01:56:30 GMT

Mr. V is my new favorite teacher at Gateway.
Mrs. J is always gonna be my favorite teacher of all time, though.
But still, Mr. V is my favorite teacher that still teaches at GCHS.
He's so awesome! And he puts up with me twice a day in class...& all those times in the hall.
I don't know how he does it.

Mr. Veeeeeeeeee is the President of the United States of Pre-Calculus (& CAD)!!! =]

wow.

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 04:44:16 GMT

I can't believe what he did. I can't believe what she did. Everything was fine between them until she came into the picture. And now, I may lose my friend forever. All because she had to take him away. I don't know what to do. If anything happens to her, I feel like it would be my fault. I knew he was going to do it...but I was too scared to say anything. Fuck. I hate myself right now.

Sorry if this confused anyone. Something really bad just happened tonight involving 3 of my friends...and I just needed to let it out.

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 01:27:02 GMT

I think I'm the happiest person alive. :D

yay!

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 23:27:25 GMT

My schedule was finally changed.

1st: Computer Applications in Science & Engineering -- Vitale.
2nd: American Sign Language II -- Munoz.
3rd: AP US History -- Kossman.
4C: Pre-Calculus -- Vitale.
5th: French I -- Seckinger.
6th: Chemistry I -- Adeosun.
7th: AP English -- Finkelberg.

I went to all of my new classes today. I love my new schedule sooo much more. I couldn't have asked for better classes this year. =]

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 21:00:24 GMT

la la la. i'm still trying to get my schedule changed. la la la.